♥ Saturday, April 11, 2009
TO THOSE WHO STILL DON'T KNOW:i've moved to
http://brainy-villain.blogspot.com
i guess you've missed alot.
see you there.
Previously ..
you've missed alot.special special
happy 1 month (and a day)
i love&miss you.
This post was supposed to be published on 11 Decem...
omg sorry la.
no. 100
hello yoou!
omygod.
hello
i've moved to
http://brainy-villain.blogspot.com
i guess you've missed alot.
see you there.
♥ Thursday, January 22, 2009
and thaaat's a dumb girl playing the guitar. (:
aft more than half a year of owning the guitar without touching it, i'm now learning how to play the guitar for proper (:
so this is for my bestie, Awaliah, my moyang yang and still my baby no matter how many times she denounced herself from being my baby. Have a fun and save journey yeah! I'll miss you. Anyway yang, remember last night u said when can i play the guitar for you face to face since we'll nt be meeting each other for long, and then i said i've a surprise for you, this is it. Hope you like it (:
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Anyway, just now i met up with Baby. After at least 3 rough days, he came up to me under my block with two white roses. Sigh I love you Faiz. Sweet baby..
whiterose, it signifies pureness of a newly formed bond between lovers.
We went to Causeway Point and watched Inkheart, a really really nice movie (: And then we went to Pang Sua Reservoir also known as Bukit Panjang Reservoir, the tasik.(: And then as usual he send me home. We rushed thinking that there's ngaji today, but NO, it was cancelled. Tsk. And then Baby head off to Baim's.
Baby's sick. Sigh, you didn't tell me it was that bad.
Baby's sick. Sigh, you didn't tell me it was that bad.
♥ Saturday, January 17, 2009
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together
Hello, yesterday was my one month and one day anniversary with Faiz. Firstly we went to Botanic Gardens. My my, it was uber tiring. Walking uphill, under a scorching hot sun.. Haha, but hell; we did have a great time there. Baby was being the photographer of the day, trying to steal my dream title away from me, which he really did, tsk. Nevermindddd xP We fed fishes! (: Okay, how romantic. Korg pena buat, pena buat? Fish pat dalam tasik tau, bukan dalam tank. Hahahah. And then, we, dressed up as how we dressed up when we first dated, went to the place where we first dated, Kallang, to unofficially end our 1 month celebration.
Nevermind the squeaking of rats and the leaping of a frog, there's the place. Sigh, however, after the date unofficially ended, it was mostly tears and exasperation ,not really tears of exasperation, but tears and exasperation. Well, it started out as me being late. I was supposed to be home at around 9, latest 10. However, it was already 9 when we walked off from Kallang.
So first,
Worthy of tears: I had to abruptly end the date, he was upset, i was just so guilty.
The exasperation part: Bus 11 was painfully slow, and clock was ticking.
Combination of both: I was pissed and cranky, he was upset to the power of two to see me in a cranky mood on our first month.
End result: Tears and exasperation
Main cause: Me.
Then, both of us just shut up. We didnt talk for long, like what? at least 20 minutes or so. I was still moody and in a very cranky mood. Very very very cranky mood.
And then secondly,
Worthy of tears: He nudged me (we were not talking, remember) and handed his phone over. There, he typed (at the new sms screen) "Sad.. our one month and ure filled with anger and hatred.. )':"
Exasperation: I was really really guilty. However, I cant make myself to talk to him. I typed "Sorry it didnt turn out the way we wanted". And like what it seemed forever, he typed "It's ok.. I love you.. Dear, cool down" And pang! It came to me like a hard slap; he put up with all my nonsense and there I was being irrational and cranky on ouuur first month.
End result: I was filled with guilt, I cried. He saw me crying, tried to console me, however i felt more guilty and cried more, he felt helpless i guess, he cried too.
Main cause: Congratulations to me.
Sigh, well, it's not a sad ending, we kinda consoled each other (and fuck to think of it, he was the one who comforted me, I DID NOT. shit you ain) and he cracked a joke, i cracked mine, we laughed. And then took a cab home from CCK. (: Hahaha..
and sometimes i wonder, why did he even bother?
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Digression;
Results are out. It wasn't really fantastic. But whateverr..
And I really hope I'll get YJC. The reason why I didnt choose JJC even though I can was because I was afraid that I cant cope with their system. Besides, YJC provides the freedom of subject combination. So yeah.
and this is it,
the abrupt end.
toodles!
So first,
Worthy of tears: I had to abruptly end the date, he was upset, i was just so guilty.
The exasperation part: Bus 11 was painfully slow, and clock was ticking.
Combination of both: I was pissed and cranky, he was upset to the power of two to see me in a cranky mood on our first month.
End result: Tears and exasperation
Main cause: Me.
Then, both of us just shut up. We didnt talk for long, like what? at least 20 minutes or so. I was still moody and in a very cranky mood. Very very very cranky mood.
And then secondly,
Worthy of tears: He nudged me (we were not talking, remember) and handed his phone over. There, he typed (at the new sms screen) "Sad.. our one month and ure filled with anger and hatred.. )':"
Exasperation: I was really really guilty. However, I cant make myself to talk to him. I typed "Sorry it didnt turn out the way we wanted". And like what it seemed forever, he typed "It's ok.. I love you.. Dear, cool down" And pang! It came to me like a hard slap; he put up with all my nonsense and there I was being irrational and cranky on ouuur first month.
End result: I was filled with guilt, I cried. He saw me crying, tried to console me, however i felt more guilty and cried more, he felt helpless i guess, he cried too.
Main cause: Congratulations to me.
Sigh, well, it's not a sad ending, we kinda consoled each other (and fuck to think of it, he was the one who comforted me, I DID NOT. shit you ain) and he cracked a joke, i cracked mine, we laughed. And then took a cab home from CCK. (: Hahaha..
and sometimes i wonder, why did he even bother?
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Digression;
Results are out. It wasn't really fantastic. But whateverr..
And I really hope I'll get YJC. The reason why I didnt choose JJC even though I can was because I was afraid that I cant cope with their system. Besides, YJC provides the freedom of subject combination. So yeah.
and this is it,
the abrupt end.
toodles!
♥ Friday, January 9, 2009
My darlingsayangbestiegirlfriendbabymoyang. I love her alot. I miss her toooos! Well, I thank God who brought us together. Fated (: Can you believe it, our birthdays are like a day apart of each other. She was born on the 19th of August, 1992. I was born on th 20th of August, 1992. And here I go again: How do I meet Awaliah. The first time we met each other was in Jurong East Library. She was with her Ex boyfie, I was alone. She walked past me, I looked up, we exchanged smiles. (Just recently, both of us found out t hat each secretly wanted to befriend each other that day.) Coincidentally, or what we say, just fated, we sat next to each other in the library the next day. She was with Faraliza, I was with Amirul, Murhani and Adawiyah. She offered us mentos. We talked, exchanged numbers. That night, we started sms-ing each other, a lot. And through the minutes and days, we bonded. Here we are, moyang Awaliah, and nenek A'in; babies at heart. (: I love you okay girl. Let's make this deal, we'll survive as long as we can, if not, forever (:
Say Hello to my badot buddylove! Hey budd, I was really touched when you did whatever you could to meet me even for a chippy while just now. This guy here actually risked being late for his test just to meet me for 3 minutes, i feel like smacking you bud! And this guy here also did whatever he could to make me smile when I was in my major snappy and moody self. Budddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. The band manager or Devout Recital, a really reallly AWESOME band. Seriously (: .. I don't mind risking * ..... * to say this. I miss you laaaaaaa. You and your taking care siols. (:
Say hello to Faiz. My love. Well, initially, being with him had resulted in major friendship issues that are, sadly, gonecase now. I almost gave up. I did.. I wanted to back off, as what I said in my previous post which was almost a month ago. Well.. I'm with him now. I am. Whether you like it or not. Baby, I know things are not turning up well for you. It affects us too, undeniably. But hell, it only affects us physically kan? I swear to God, I don't mind sacrificing a little. Tidak menyusahkan, really. The special times we share. Especially thaaat night.And it's better left unknown to the public, or it won't be that special anymore.
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♥ Thursday, December 11, 2008
This post was supposed to be published on 11 December 2008Hello people. Happy thursday. Well i guess not. I've no idea whaat i should do. Should i smile because i'm happy and someone is happy. Or should i cry because i'm unhappy and that someone else in unhappy. Damn it. Having more than 1 person resenting you in less than a week is seriously not something to be happy about. Misunderstandings. Yeah. And why on earth does shiits happen at night? Well yeah. Hmm.. Well, this is hard for me. Really. To the people whom i talked to about this matter, maybe you might understand how i'm feeling right now. Maybe, to some, I am the thief. I know, comparing a friend and myself, that friend is way off deserving than me. Their friendship and bond is way off longer and stronger than mine. Jees. I'm confused. You are one troubled being, aren't you? Pity you. But like what a friend say, I can't possibly make both of them happy. He said that if I backed off thinking that she'd be happy, she will still remain unhappy and in addition, he will also be unhappy. And like what another friend say, make the decision that makes you happy. I think i know.. However, if only doing it is as easy as thinking of it. Anyway, to those who are questioning or doubtful of my current status, Nur A'in is still single. I hope that i will not repeat the same mistake as what happened between Rieza and myself. Girl, I really hope you are doing fine. If you're reading this, i'm really sorry. I really have no idea about this. Please do stay as a friend.
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On a happier note, I met my bestfriend today, Baby! Awaliah sayaaang. Baby, i really miss you. Sorry for the misunderstanding yesterday. I was just feeling so emotionally weak. And because it was night time and i am quite wary of night time conflicts. God i miss her. Yesterday, someone texted me saying that I have to meet her friend as she needs to pass something to me via her friend. Well, things got a little suspicious when she said that I must cancel any other plans I have for the day after (today) for her sake. So I decided to "call" her up just to listen to the sound of the ringing. And, just like what I suspected it to sound like, it sounds normal. You know, if you happen to call someone in Malaysia, the ringing tone will be different. Hers sounded normal, so ta-da, baby's back! Hahahaha. Ewe ewe.
So today, I met Ewe at Choa Chu Kang and we gave each other huge hugs. We then went to LotOne's Cotton On and bought the EXACT same longsleeves tshirts. Haha, clone (: Then we headed to my crib and we watched National Treasure and ate sardine puffs and onion rings. Heh. Anyway, I watched that movie for like ten times, yet, i still find it exciting. hoho.
BABY I MISS YOOU!
Then my baby went off. Jeez. Sad. My last meeting with her before her trip to Dubai and my trip to Sabah.
Yeah, i'm going to Sabah on the 24 - 28 of December.
Alaaa, if i got enough ka-ching and time to go shopping, i'll buy for you and yous.
So today, I met Ewe at Choa Chu Kang and we gave each other huge hugs. We then went to LotOne's Cotton On and bought the EXACT same longsleeves tshirts. Haha, clone (: Then we headed to my crib and we watched National Treasure and ate sardine puffs and onion rings. Heh. Anyway, I watched that movie for like ten times, yet, i still find it exciting. hoho.
BABY I MISS YOOU!
Then my baby went off. Jeez. Sad. My last meeting with her before her trip to Dubai and my trip to Sabah.
Yeah, i'm going to Sabah on the 24 - 28 of December.
Alaaa, if i got enough ka-ching and time to go shopping, i'll buy for you and yous.
